Jett is fourteen months old. He can walk. He can get on and off his rocking horse. He can say "ball". He can pull my shirt up and try to nurse in public.
I thought he would have stopped by now. I hoped he would have stopped by now. But without realizing it, and without planning on it, we've entered that misunderstood world of extended breastfeeding. That world where the nicest people ask me how long I'm planning on breastfeeding my son, and then say, "well, I guess it's ok as long as he's not still doing it when he's two, or three, or fill-in-the-blank-with-whatever-they-think-is-socially-acceptable."
I think they're trying to let me know that even though I'm crazy, I've still got time to make it back to normalville if I get him off of my breast
right now.
The thing is, I have no idea how long I'm going to nurse Jett. When he was born my goal was six months. At six months I hoped for twelve months, and at twelve months I expected him to stop nursing, get a driver's license, and drink coffee for breakfast. But here we are, still drinking our favorite breakfast, only now we've got teeth to deal with too.
Maybe you will understand if I put this way. Picture the usual evening. He tries to turn on the oven and I say, "No." He wants to play on the kitchen counter but I say, "No." He wants to play with my cell phone, and I say, "No." He wants to sit in the dishwasher, but I say, "No."
No, no no. Cry, cry, cry. Stomp, stomp, stomp. Grump, grump, grump.
Then he climbs up into my lap, curls in to my arms, and snuggles in. I say
yes. Every time,
yes.
He's my baby. Yes, yes, yes.